A Walking Suicide Note

nimbus clouds like looming suicide

She exists and persists with a nimbus cloud hovering over her head, filled with notions of death and self-disgust that prevents her from shutting her eyes at night – for sleep makes the nightmares too real, the horrors tangible enough to wind her springs tight. She smiles and laughs to hide mirthless eyes that speak […]

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When My Days Blend Into Nights

days blend into nights

When my days refuse to end even as the sun goes down and disappear to let the moon shine – that’s when I’d know that my world is beginning to totter and tilt into a blanket of dark space. When my midnights seem to be another midday, even as the stars begin to twinkle out […]

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When the Day Comes

when the day comes

There will always come a day when you’d slip back into yourself. When all efforts you’ve done to appear happy and on top of things will topple down and leave you in a puddle of mess so sticky, you’d have a hard time ungluing your body and your mind from it all. Amidst all the […]

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This is Not Being Brave

standing tall is not being brave

I am not brave. I just know what people expect from people who go through the same shit as I do. They expect us to say we’re fine when they ask if we’re okay – for they couldn’t handle it otherwise. They expect us to smile and be all happy and gay even if we’re […]

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Back in the Dark

In the Dark

She smiled. She smiled with all her might – But she’s drowning in the dark again. She tried. She tried real hard – But she’s back down in her hell-hole again. She’s back. She’s back in that place, Where she’s clawing at her wrists again And she aches for a simple embrace. She’s empty. Yes, […]

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